"People who think ADD means having a short attention span misunderstand what ADD is," says Kathleen Nadeau, Ph.D., a psychologist in Silver Spring, Maryland, and the author of ADD-Friendly Ways to Organize Your Life. "A better way to look at it is that people with ADD have a disregulated attention system."

scatteredminds.com

"The hallmark of ADD is an automatic, unwilled "tuning out," a frustrating non-presence of mind. People suddenly find that they have heard nothing of what they have been listening to, saw nothing of what they were looking at, remember nothing of what they were trying to concentrate on. One misses information and directions, misplaces things, and struggles to stay abreast of conversations. Tuning out creates practical hardships, and it also interferes with one’s enjoyment of life... ...This absence of mind is one cause of the distractibility and short attention spans which bedevil the adult or child with ADD, except around activities of high interest and motivation. There is an almost active not noticing, as if a person purposefully went out of his way to be oblivious of what is around him... ...The distractibility fosters chaos. You decide to clean your room which, typically, looks like a tornado has just passed through. You pick a book off the floor and move to replace it on the shelf. As you do so, you notice that two volumes of poetry by William Carlos Williams are not stacked side by side. Forgetting the debris on the floor, you lift one of the volumes to place it beside its sibling. Turning a page, you begin to read a poem. The poem has a classical reference in it, which prompts you to consult your guide to Greek mythology; now you are lost because one reference leads to another. An hour later, your interest in classical mythology exhausted for the moment, you return to your intended task. You are hunting for the missing half of a pair of socks which has gone on furlough, perhaps permanently, when another item of clothing on the floor reminds you that you have laundry to wash before the evening. As you head downstairs, laundry hamper in arm, the telephone rings. Your plan to create order in your room is now doomed... ...The distractibility in ADD is not consistent. Many parents and teachers are misled: to some activities a child may be able devote, if anything, a compulsive, hyperconcentrated attention. But hyperfocusing which exludes awareness of one’s environment is also poor attention regulation. Too, often hyperfocusing involves what may be described as passive attention, as in watching television or playing video games. Passive attention permits the mind to cruise on automatic without requiring the brain to expend effortful energy. Active attention, in which the mind is fully engaged and the brain has to perform work, is mustered only in special circumstances of high motivation. Active attention is a capacity the ADD brain lacks whenever organized work must to be done, or when attention needs to be directed towards something of low interest... ...A facility for focusing when one is interested in something does not rule out ADD, but to be able to focus the person with ADD needs a much higher level of motivation than do other people. Ignorance of this fact has led many doctors to miss the diagnosis. "Indeed, the characteristic of our patient," wrote a psychiatrist of a college lecturer I had diagnosed with attention deficit disorder but whose GP wanted a second opinion, "is that he is able to focus his attention on something that he is really interested in, which for patients afflicted with ADD is very difficult." That is not what is very difficult. What can be immobilizingly difficult is to arouse the brain’s motivational apparatus in the absence of personal interest. ADD is situational: in the same individual its expression may vary greatly from one circumstance to another. There are certain classes, for example, in which the ADD child may perform remarkably well, while in others she is scattered, unproductive, and perhaps disruptive. Teachers may conclude that the child is wilfully deciding when, or when not, to buckle down and work diligently. Many children with ADD are subjected to overt disapproval and public shaming in the classroom for behaviours they do not consciously choose. These children are not purposively inattentive or disobedient. There are emotional and neurophysiological forces at play that do the actual deciding for them... ...In a minority of cases, especially in girls, hyperactivity may be absent altogether. They may go through school inattentive and absent minded but, as they cause no trouble, they are "passed through" from grade to grade... ...Frequent and frustrating memory lapses punctuate every day in the life of the person with ADD... The moods of the ADD child are as capricious as the weather patterns El Nino has loosed upon the world. Happy smiles are transformed into frowns of displeasure or grimaces of despair in a matter of moments...The emotional states of adults with attention deficit disorder are also up and down without apparent rhyme or reason. Good days and bad days follow each other according to some mysterious calendar written who knows where and by whom."

"She'd walked through the world like a zombie for an entire season--like the beast in a Stephen Crane poem, eating of her heart and enjoying it, because it was so bitter, and because it was her heart." -Laura Kasischke, The Raising

A little mixed-breed apple, half red, half yellow, yells this story. A lover and beloved get separated. Their being apart was one thing, but they have opposite responses. The lover feels pain and grows pale. The beloved flushes and feels proud. I am a thorn next to my master's rose. We seem to be two, but we are not.

"Your body is away from me But there is a window open from my heart to yours. From this window, like the moon I keep sending news secretly." -Rumi

Last night as I was sleeping, I dreamt—marvelous error!— that I had a beehive here inside my heart. And the golden bees ... were making white combs and sweet honey from my old failures. -Antonio Machado

Week of the 9th

"You may want to expand your social horizons with the Aquarius Moon's presence in your 9th House of Adventure this weekend. Travel plans excite you and people from faraway places could be especially appealing. Food, music and art from other cultures entertain your curious mind to enliven a current relationship or encourage your pursuit of a new one. Smart people provide the intellectual stimulation needed to maintain your romantic interest."

...Amidst the glorious perfume of the earth,
I dream of love and I sleep alone,
Oh virgin with the beautiful face formed in invory and gold
Whom I weep for still!"

--Sappho

Because I cannot sleep
I make music at night.
I am troubled by the one
whose face has the color of spring flowers.
I have neither sleep nor patience,
neither a god reputation nor disgrace.
A thousand robes of wisdom are gone.
All my good manners have moved a thousand miles away.
The heart and the mind are left angry with each other.
The starts and the moon are envious of each other.
Because of this alienation the physical universe
is getting tighter and tighter.
The moon says, "How long will I remain
suspended without a sun?"
Without Love's jewel inside of me,
let the bazaar of my existence by destroyed stone by stone.
O Love, You who have been called by a thousand names,
You who know how to pour the wine
into the chalice of the body,
You who give culture to a thousand cultures,
You who are faceless but have a thousand faces,
O Love, You who shape the faces
of Turks, Europeans, and Zanzibaris,
give me a glass from Your bottle,
or a handful of bheng from Your Branch.
Remove the cork once more.

Come to the orchard in Spring.
There is light and wine, and sweethearts
in the pomegranate flowers.

If you do not come, these do not matter.
If you do come, these do not matter.

There is a smile and a gentleness
inside. When I learned the name

and address of that, I went to where
you sell perfume. I begged you not

to trouble me so with longing. Come
out and play! Flirt more naturally.

Teach me how to kiss. On the ground
a spread blanket, flame that's caught

and burning well, cumin seeds browning,
I am inside all of this with my soul.

"you must be able
to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it

against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go"
-Mary Oliver

2012 Wish List

Recordings from NICK PAINTER.





Studio album for Liz McDaniel.

2011 in Music

So many exciting albums this year. It really was a turning point, and I have renewed my faith in the industry. Many artists are seeking independent means of releasing their material (just see Louis C.K. and his $5 a pop stand up comedy). There were handfuls of artists that released good albums, but it takes something special to create new and varying arts from previous works. There are too many to mention, so here's a couple of my faves for 2011:

St. Vincent - Strange Mercy
Annie Clark is always improving with age, but that's a wine I can't keep my hands off of. Her solo debut Marry Me had our attention, with her unique song writing. Marrow, composed through Garageband, was a knocked out of the park with her pairing of "gnarly" guitar and distorted sax tracks, and orchestration of brass and winds. Strange Mercy is another masterpiece, combing the tenderness of her first album with the rock energy of the second, delivered through ambient lenses. Her 4AD session shows the raw energy she exudes in her performances. "Northern Lights" is another standout track.



Slothpop - Kokoro
So much love and respect for our Indianapolis friends, Slothpop. They helped kick off 2011 with their release of Kokoro in January. The whole album is a journey of euphoric sounds, tempting you to place it on endless loop. The group released some video teasers the month prior in 2010, also worthy of mentioning.

SLOTHPOP : SAILING BIRD // a one-take show from One-Take Shows on Vimeo.

Emily King - The Seven EP
This is everything I hoped alternative R&B would be. The innovative Emily King has taken the genre to a new level. King has stepped back from the mainstream, independently releasing her new album, with more authentic, sweet, sultry sounds. She is definitely ahead of her time, and I can't wait to see what more she does.


King - The Story
Another glimmer of hope for R&B meets electronica. I about geeked when I first heard this song on Nick Austin's WDET show. WHY DON'T THEY PLAY THIS MUSIC ON MAINSTREAM RADIO. Ugh, anyhoo. I really look forward to seeing more of this trio in 2012. They have toured with Janelle Monae, and Prince is starting to check them out.


Take Away Show: Lianne la Havas - No Room For Doubt
La Blogotheque's Take Away Shows are always pleasant (Beirut's are often fun, with their orchestration). However, this video was just something else entirely. I literally dropped everything I was doing, mesmerized by her honest smile and voice. She's finally getting some good press, with her performance on Jools Holland costarring with Bon Iver.


Gun Lake - Balfour
Mark Fain, Mark Fain, Mark Fain. Ahh, yes. My favorite lyricist of the year. Once you are drawn in by the the sweet melodic timbres and harmonies, you are taken for a ride of stories. Listening to Balfour from start to finish is like reading a good book. Fain caters tracks in a traditional singer/songwriter feel meets indie-folk Michigan sound.


The Smoots - demos
Very much under the radar, Alyse Schneider cuts personal tracks from her Brooklyn residence. A great treat for those who have stumbled across these mixes.
right around the corner by The Smoots

Home recording feel: Holly Mae & The Painted Room - I Am Dark Sided
Ex-patriate Holly Mae's Berlin debut with new team of players. A great soundtrack to a quiet night at home (think bottle of wine, and personal handy DIY or craft project).


Best Video: Adele - Rolling In The Deep
No end of the year list would be complete without Adele's 21. I tried vehemently to not let this song be spoiled by radio overkill. I faired well, with rationing my number of album listenings, sticking to her live recordings, and saving it all for her appearance at Royal Oak Music Theatre in May.


Nod to Aretha Franklin
After being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in 2010, Aretha had canceled her U.S. tour, only to return shortly into 2011: I originally was devastated that I may never see the powerhouse of soul live, but to my luck she delivered a stellar performance in August (with wardrobe changes!). Not to mention, her orchestra was tight, laying down the Motown. Anita Baker was also in attendance, giving props to her singing colleague.


So many great independent artists. Exciting things going on in Michigan and surrounding states. I didn't even really touch electronic/dance music or other mainstream artists. With 2012, I look forward to more releases from friends and new faces. If anything, I would request some more soul/funk revival (thank you Mayer Hawthorne for trying to revive out great export).

If you are looking for new tunes, just browse bandcamp for independent artists. Check out the lineup for 2011's Mitten Fest for great local groups (e.g. Stepdad). I also recommend Sunday as a good radio day full of music: WDET's Modern Music right into New Soul Sunday, then Ann Arbor's 107.1 for Sonic Bliss 9pm-12am.

I'm feeling in quite a Blossom Dearie mood today.




I'm currently working on this song, though the Ella Fitzgerald version is the most popular. I enjoyed stumbling across this claymation video of the piece.

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